Sean Cryer

So, what do you think about reincarnation?
Uhm, I think that what we are is the electricity in our brain and that when we die and the electricity stops, we’re gone.

And that’s it? That your soul just kind of stops?
Or whatever that shit in your brain is just kind of stops and then you’re done.

Okay. Interesting. There are religions that believe that certain objects have spirits, like rocks or trees and that animals have spirits and that we have animal guides that come and are part of your life. Is there any animal that you’ve always felt attracted to?
An animal I like..?

Is there an animal you were obsessed with when you were a kid?
I liked mountain lions... when I was kid. Just in general though..? I don’t know if one comes to mind that I’m actually really fond of. It’s funny, I’m sure id be able to think about it and come up with an answer but on the spot I don’t know.

There’s nothing that comes to your mind at first?
Eagles are cool.

What is it about eagles you like?
Just that they own the sky. You know, they can see really far and fly really high, they have huge wings. They’re pretty, I don’t know.

Yeah, cool. And mountain lions? What about mountain lions is it that you like?
I just thought they were cool, I was a kid. I never had a real like, reason to like them

You don’t have to have a reason, sometimes it’s just like a…
They’re nice.

Yeah.
They’re cool looking.

Yeah, I like lions. They’re my favourite animal. Uhm, so are you familiar with karma at all?
Like, what goes around comes around?

Yeah. Well, in Hinduism they base their whole lives on it. Everything you do in your current life will affect you in a future life when you reincarnate and if you do bad things you will reincarnate into a lesser life form.
What do I think about that? Well, I don’t know, I think all these sort of beliefs make sense how they can be comforting to someone who’s afraid of dying and just, not being around anymore. But none of these ideas have really seemed to make enough sense for me to believe them, you know? As much as I’d love to be comforted by the fact that I’m not going to disappear it’s the only thing that’s ever felt really true to me. I came upon the realization that I was going to die when I was a kid. I was thinking about like, Egyptians, and mummies and I was like “why are they in those coffins?” for so long, and then I was like “oh shit, they’re dead.” Then I realized like, “I’m going to die.” And I sort of freaked out and I asked my dad in the car, I still remember, I was like “what’s going to happen when I die?” And my dad was like “I don’t know.” And I just thought, there’s going to be nothing. That’s what I thought, there’s going to be absolutely nothing. I’m not going to even know, it's going to be like an endless abyss of nothing.

Do you feel sad knowing that?
Yeah, it scares the shit out of me.

Do you feel that, because nothing is waiting for you when you die that you have to make the best out of things now?
Well, I really enjoy life, that’s all I can say, is that I don’t want to go. I’m one of those people that would be fine living for ever. Some people are like “oh fuck that, man. I can’t, I wouldn’t be able to” and I’m like “no man.” Like, if vampires exist, come and fuckin bite me because I’m down. I’ll go eat people for a living, as long as I can be around for as long as there is to be, you know?

Yeah. Would you want to get older or just stay the same age?
I don’t care, along as I’m here. And I can still think.

Okay, I think that’s good. I don’t know what else to ask you. Do you have anything to say?
Well, it's funny because I don’t think I’ll be around, I mean, I know when I die that’s it, but on the same token I wont sign a donor card because I don’t want anything taken out of my body when I’m dead. I need my things.

Even though you’re dead and you consciousness is inexistent?
Yeah I feel like I’ll still be there, which I guess I’m ego centric, I think like I’ll live forever. I tell myself that, so I don’t have to worry about it. Also I read this comic a while ago where there was a guy who was just like “I’m going to live forever” and then he does. So then I was like-

“I wish that was me”
That guy knows where it’s at. I want to like, follow his footsteps, you know.

K, well I guess thaat’s it!
Cool.